she was my bestfriend

i remember sitting in the living room talking to my brother nick and we talked about college about how this is when you find out who is your friends... " that girl sitting across from you probably not gon be your friend after the first semester" but i resured my brother that she was my best friend and we to close to be apart nothing could seperate us... but first semester was CRAZY and i started to see a change in her.. she started to fade away and well we ened our friendship... its alot to it but im tired of typing bruh lol

making a way

really trying to make a way. I been sitting up here looking for scholarships to fill out for the up coming fall 2011...blah blah uggh
I kinda have to promises to keep to myself um ill list them later...

my future my life

well im not going to begin the program when i want =) for my first semester in college I have an GPA of B (3.4). I really need to stop trying to rush to get out of college becuase I was close to changing my major for less school but less schooling mean LESS MONEY. i want to get into a job field im going to LOVE and make good money in and suppose myself by myself... im ready to pay bills and work 12 hours for four days straight in hospital where there is no dull moment and everything is so fast pace...im ready to help people... I do have something that could block all my dream and it was a mistake.. but god will make a way. I hope

Welp this up coming semester im taking seven classes!
i know i can handle it though..
i want to go to summer school but the only way is if I have a job by then =(
then fall semester ill be taking the 2nd A&P and A&P lab then i'll have all the classes i need before going into the nursing program... A job is well damn needed right now bc im poor and broke and its horrible...!

This is how i want my life to go.....

• first and most important i want to complete my schooling (three years) -hinds cc
• I want to have my own place by the summer of 2012
• have my own car by the fall 2012
• enter the nursing program fall 2012
• graduate from hinds by 2014
• move to hattiesberg for two years 2016
• make another move (memphis TN) two years! 2018
• then become a traveling nurse =)

i really plan on living my life in california.. its been a BIG dream and i want to make it a reality.
I have to keep focus keep my faith in god and myself and I know i can do it.. god knows i can.

i want better i want *change =)

I want Change*
okay so im selling my books back and selling this camera and i should make atleast $200
so I plan to get my hair done which should cost $30 or 50 my tattoos $40 or 60 and nails $30
i want my nose pierced which probably is 30 or 40...
so im going to need like $130 to $180... time to hustle for a change. bc i need it
Oh yea im getting a gym memebership for next semester!! got to get in shape too
i plan to lose 50 pounds.. naw 90 pounds at the most in four months or less.. im tired of being FAT lol
big ass diet for me

blame game..

[Kanye West]Things used to be, now they not
Anything but us is who we are
Disguising ourselves as secret lovers
We've become public enemies
We walk away like strangers in the street
Gone for eternity
We erased one another
So far from where we came
With so much of everything, how do we leave with nothing
Lack of visual empathy equates the meaning of L-O-V-E
Hatred and attitude tear us entirely

lets play the blame games....

there are tears falling down my face... im confused.. i just dont know what to do

what I "want" but dont really "need"

okay i want lots of things but do i really need them tho! to me, yes I do =)
So Mr. Santa if you come across my blog just send me a bag full of money hehe thanks you!
--> List please

1. a new phone and a new plan!!!

not really want that iphone 4 shit... just give me the HTC or Blackberry curve


yes i only like blackberrys and HTC they were made for me... time to say bye to the pearl ..eeeww
2.   a laptop!!! mmm i really do need this since im in college and im tired of having to walk to the media   center on campus all the time..
MACBOOK!
i mean who doesnt want an apple mac as a laptop.. i have used one and its amazing... and its HIGH $999 buts in the end its worth the money =)
3. MP3! i had one but my itouch broke.. ugh sad sad but they have the new one

um thats most of what i want but do i really NEED.. kinda, maybe, yes...

the black keys

great band! i discovered them a year ago.. no wait more then a year.. one of their tracks called "when the lights go out" was on the soundtrack of the movie BLACK SNAKE MOAN...i fell in love .. a year later i picked them back up... glade they put out another album.. rare that i find an artist where on the album i love EVERY song.. they make you fall in love with the blues

a change

i want something new because its needed in my life right now... i have no direction right now either, kinda lost in the fog.